back to school

well it's back to school once again...

a new year. 2009

a somewhat new class. from vs1q to vs2q

a few changes to the time table. now i don't have school on fridays. 

a few different lecturers. goodbye james lee(we'll miss you) hello heleston(once again)

but enough about that.

somehow class and school seem different from what it used to be. 

maybe it's just me...

but i feel slightly dejected. and i think it's only me, because everyone seem like normal

and it's really weird.

maybe i just need time to adjust back to school life.

like how the things were when school started.

i'll give an example on what i mean by i feel different.

last year, no matter how jialat(hokkien dialect for "difficult" or "hard") school life was,

i would just smile and try to cheer everyone up by saying it's not that hard.

BUT!

now. even when school life is not jialat,  i still feel dejected and down. 

like on tuesday after "I.Studies"(lesson i have),  everyone felt calm and relaxed and all that shit.

but i just didn't feel like talking to anyone. and i disappeared from mount emily park faster then anyone from my class. i didn't even say bye to them.

and i think people are starting to take notice.

today, lini asked me if i was ok?

i just said i was fine.

but seriously??? i really don't know what is wrong with me these past few days...

i don't know why i feel so lifeless in school now...

i guess the only thing i can do is to take things one step at a time.

i think i've said enough.

the more i type the more i feel.

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